Jay Z must like that feeling of being authentic because he can’t seem to stop! Once someone starts speaking their truth and feels the peace that comes with it, they want to do it all the time.
Jay’s album 444 came with a mini-documentary called Footnotes, which sheds even more light on who he is as a person and as a husband. He shares some of his deepest secrets from his life and marriage.
Something that might be hard for fans to hear is that Jay Z states, in the mini-doc, that his perfect marriage with Beyonce was a lie. Its a tough pill to swallow, but a necessary and ultimately healing truth.
The documentary features Jay Z, Kendrick Lamar, Jesse Williams, Omari Hardwick, Anthony Anderson, Aziz Ansari, Chris Rock, Rel Smith, Will Smith and Meek Mill, among many others, talking about love, relationships, and their own experience.
Jay Z, Beyonce, and Solange didn’t just cut themselves open in each of their respective projects and lives following the elevator beat-down hear ’round the world, they also spoke on the parallels between their own experiences and the black experience.
They speak on generational trauma and cyclical patterns of toxicity; how it’s heard them. How it’s made even the universal truth of love more difficult.
Jay Z speaks candidly in a way fans aren’t used to; especially revolving around his marriage to Queen B, which the couple has always kept private. He begins, “What I thought when I met my dad was ‘I’m free to love now.” But how are you going to do it?”
“You want to do it. I get it. But how are you going to do it? You’ve never done this before. No one informed you how to do this. You don’t even have the tools to do it. But you’re going to do it because you’re ready. That’s why I say ‘you mature faster than me, I wasn’t ready. This is my real life,” Jay continued.
“I just ran into this place, and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn’t totally built on the 100 percent truth. And then it starts cracking. Then things start happening that the public can see,” said Jay Z, speaking on the cracks in his marriage, which started to become clear to the public a few years ago.
“Then we had to get to a point of ‘Okay, tear this down and let’s start from the beginning’…It’s hard. Remember I’m from Marcy Projects, I’ve been shot at, all kinds of ish but nothing is harder than this. By far It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And most people. Most humans, US, we’re not willing to put ourselves through that. Most people give up.”
Jay Z says this was uncomfortable work for the couple; but necessary. He begged with Bey not to leave him; he broke down his own walls and opened up to her. And they have come out the other side stronger than ever.